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Which category of christians do you belong to:

A) A christian so on fire for God and so zealous that you will go right into the heart of a mosque in Middle East which kills christians and you will tell the muslims there, "Jesus is the only way to be saved".

B) A christian so forgiving that you will share the love of Christ to a person who is a child rapist, a murderer of your own parents and who commit all kinds of sins, that God loves Him and in spite of all that he had done, you forgive him and want him to be saved.

 

amazing question. except I don't know which will I fall into. I probably choose B if given a choice. Seems easier (>_<)

as human, we all have moments of regrets. And i'm living through 1 now.

 

It's been barely a month, but I'm already regreting my decision. I miss baby eleo again.
yes, i've said so many times that i just need to remind myself whenever i feel bits of misses.
but surely that doesn't affect my previledge to think about eleo?

 

i've been blog hopping again.
blog hopped to sianqinn's blog. blog hopped to cakee's blog.
it's always these few blogs that make me feel i could give eleo what they have given their baby.
it's always these blogs that make me think of eleo.
but i cann't give up reading them.
maybe because i'm gainning joy from watching others raise their child.

 

i miss him. i really do.
the pain the aches.
i know all these will go.
baby boy, be happy. 

 

i wanna dye my hair.
probably dark red. the kind that can only be seen under sunlight.
:)

2more days to going to church x)
I'm excited! After so long. Although I preobably cann't rmb what I'm missing. haha

yeah ~!

Praise the LORD!!!

I BATHED ! \(^o^)/
woohoo ~ finally !!! after 3weeks 1day (^^)

That was the WORST and BEST bathe i have in 17years almost 18years of life.

 

WORST :

- Boiling water!
- the herbs dont feel like normal water ;; makes my skin so smooth after that it felt abit funny. haha
- i keep feeling lke drinking the water bcus it tasted nice :X
- it was a 1 hour bath !

 

BEST :

- i'm CLEANNNN

 

lol lol lol.

I'm back to being addicted to Parachute Band. AWWW u rockkkkkk ~~~!!!!!

 

super looking forward to thurs 1st april !!! CHURCH !! I'm back to church ~!! WOO

I desperately wanna fit into my old clothes again (>_<) & i wanna go shoping (T_T) ohh pretty clothes ~

I went out yesterday !! to walk Prince. LOL !

-hides in a corner! - dont beat me dont beat me !!! I got good explaination.!

MUMMY MADE ME DO IT ~!!!

serious ! (O.O)

ecause mummy thought Jea won't be able to finish her homework early, so she told me to wear a jacket and go downstair walk prince. I so happy so I just throw on my jacket and prepare to go down. But jea say she done with her homework rdy. Thn I say "NVM, we go tgt" :D So we went down with terrible tigger in jea's arms, and fat princey pulling me. When we reached a open area, we let tigger down to run. I was imressed bcus although he run all ard, he'd follow us. when we walk furthur up, he'd run to catch up with us. so cute :D But when we tried to catch him to carry him home, he dont let us. thn we play catching with him. (-.-) dumb puppy.

So I had a good 20min walk yesterday (^o^)

I'm free because Jesus has faced my cross for me !

i wanna scream and cry "its not fair it's not fair"

 

i finally know what I want to blog about.

i'm so funny, don't blog, stop blogging for long.
blog only everyday blog. haha

i went to the lawyers' today.
to sign eleo's adoption papers.
woke up at 0915 today to prepare leaving the house.
tried on my jeans which i failed MISERABLLY to fit into (T_T)
in the end, wore 1 of my t-shirt and a pants tt i've been wearing since pregnant.
so it goes to show how fat i still am (T_T)
hmmm... wrote a letter to the adoptive parents and gave them a few pictures of eleo.
left home at 1030 to meet daddy and cynthia downstairs
daddy drove us to the lawyer's firm
reached slighty pass 1100
passed a photocopy of my birthcert, ic, daddy and mummy's ic and eleo's original ic to the lawyer.
signed papers stating i'd agree to give up my parental rights

it wasn't as hard as i thought it'd be
i just signed it and walked off

it was harder to part with him physically
signing the papers although means the finality
but it wasn't so hard because it was just papers

finish signing and we walked off
came home and wanted to sleep
but jea was watching princess hours resulting in me watching too ! ><
although i was super tired, but still watched.
finally at about 1700+ couldn't take it and went to sleep

slept till 1900+ and woke up up dinner

 

finally settled everything.
he's legally not mine alreadys
this time it's really goodbye
i'm gonna miss you darling boy
i'm gonna wait for you
do remember that i love you

I cann't wait for the end of confinement.
I've got to be the 'guai-est' girl around.
up till today i havnt bathE.
i washed my hair twice already
daddy wasn't so pleased with that
but mummy's fine
i've been drinking my longan red date drink
eating that not-so-nice confement food
drinking the chicken essence
drinking the horrendous DOM!
mymy, arn't i guai ? haha

oh, and soon I don't have to go school.
LMAO !
cause daddy says he have no money
he's balloting for a HDB in hougang and has to pay deposit
he say got no money to pass to jon and I for school fees
so, soon i'd stop schooling. hahaha!
okok, joking. I probably can just work harder to save money
or worst come to worst, beg lor !!! LOL
mummy refuse to let us pay by CPF because she sees no point in paying the interest
she says "u collect 3years interest because u studying, thn if wan go uni another few years, by the time you can pay back interest don't know how much already! then if you need to buy house how? CPF not enough money then how? "
so... ohwell, gotta speak to daddy again about school fee. BLEHHH

See adorable Baby Eleo ? (^^) sooner or later I'd run outta photos to post. so in the mean time bare with me for awhile please ?

Anyways, heard baby Eleo's down wit jandice (T_T) hopefully he'd recover soon. Really don't want him to suffer or his parents.  Taking care of a baby really is not easy. -sigh poor Eleo. Faster faster recover baby boy. Dear God, please send more sunshine down on baby Eleo's area so he'd recover fast fast. Amen !

 

I Lost 1KG Alreadys ~!!!

- yipee yay yay yipee yipee yay ~! -

 

Target weight: 48KG

current weight: 54KG

weight to lose : 6KG

GANBARU DESU !!!

lets see.. nothing to do today.

Yesterday watched "偷心大圣 PS男" . haha the male lead in the show darns proud.
Every girl see le will feel like killing him I think.
Cos he say there's no women in this world he cann't conqure.
Then when he met a girl he dunno how to handle he called her " female animal" LOL

&& Lizhen and sharon cam eyesterday to vsit me ! :DDD
So I finally got ppl to talk rubbish with. thankies ~!

Oh, did I mention I don't like vistors? 
[ The above statement doesn't apply to Ana Lim and her family, Winona, Lizhen, Sharon ng (ok, maybe abit ;P), Mavis and CaiYu (hahahahahaha), Donald DUCK !, and JASmine Lam (nyehnyeh) & Jazreel Lim Jie Ru !! :D ]
Not that I'm mean luhs. It's just that, sometimes, when u have vistors, u have to sit up and entertain them, talk to them, play host... & I don't like doing all these. the above people are exception because they'll just make themselves at home and will entertain me! :D So having them around is fun. Not that having others is not. I just feel funny. LOL esp when I'm so stinky now and unglam. YIKES!

anyways, gotta go RP soon. Gotta configure my laptop and set my PW thn prepare for sch. -sigh

SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL.

 

PS : I wonder where's Huang Jia Yan.

 

shall post Eleo's picture again :D

ekks ! why u looking at me?!

Most anticipated moment everyday : Cleaning myself !

Most dread moment : drinking DOM at nights when mummy's home

Most looking forward moment (short-term) : BATHING ! mama says she'll go buy the herbs for me to bath :D

Most looking forward date : 5th April 2010 ! Then I wanna go bath !!! A proper shower !

Most achieved in a day : Sleeping LOL

 

tops my wishlist now:

1) Bath
2) Wash Hair
3) Change bedsheet
4) stop producing milk!
5) Go back to church
6) Go shopping !!!
7) Dress up 
8) Dye my hair

 

Cannot think of anymore HURR ohwell...

confinement's the suckiest time! YUCKS 

He's safe :) He's happy :)

fnally gave birth to baby Eleo on the 5th of March at 11** . Mummy says birth characters cannot divulge :D

I love my baby boy to nano bits :)

Last photo of my tummy

me in hospital with a bear Gugu gave :)

 

[ other pictures are gonna take awhie to come up. Com's not cooperating *pouts ]

I'm sooo pissed! Tigger just got caught around the wire of my laptop and everything shut down! Now I'm too lazy to re-upload. I'm gonna just upload 1. PISSED !

 

 

 

没有你已成了改不了的事实。

I drew a picture,

how much can u tell from this picture? :)

 

I cannot deny how much I miss my baby boy.
Missing him in my womb.
Missing him turning around.
I'm trying hard to be strong...
I really know this is the best.
I know God's grace & eyes are on Eleo.
But i cann't help wishing this isn't the way things work out.
I cann't help wishing he was right here with me now.
I miss him.
I miss him so.

 

I'll hide my tears and be strong.
Without you by my side, I mustn't crumble.
I'd wait, wait for the day you return to my side.
I must let you be proud of me.
I must let you look at me and claim proudly, "She's my momma!"
No, I'd never want you to leave your current parents.
you owe them too much, me too.
But I REALLY REALLY pray you'd love me still.
いたいね。あたしのこころわとてもいたいね。
 

TONIGHT's the NIGHT ~!

baby Eleo's coming out~~~ :DDDDDD

 

this is what happens to Jael everyday. Stare into space without expression. Life's getting worse. Used to go to work so still not so bored. But now no work, everyday I sit at home and play with my 2dogs, eat and sleep.

*FAINT

I wish there's more to life ... Wonder what can I do for the next 15days before I get confined to bed  

 

I can already imagine myself sweating like mad through the confinement.
I'm gonna be so edgy, so irritatable, so snappy.
I hate feeling that way !

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