SMILE
Thursday, April 29, 2010 @ 9:32 PM
| 0 notessomething is wrong with my laptop. The font size is wrong, The font type is wrong, everthing is wrong. so equal full-stop equal.
anyways, I have been thinking ALOT these days. thinking about so many things. things that even i, dont have a valid explaination for. random things like,
1) When I reach my 18th birthday, I wanna celebrate it with cakes and close friends. Maybe Vienna if I could afford ;P
When people reach 18, they wanna do all the stupidest things on Earth. But for me, approaching 18, I never felt younger before. I feel like a small girl now. waking up in the morning poking Jeanette, chanting , "fat dad is so fat. fat fat fat fat fat", calling jon to find out what he's doing just for the sake of it. Going out with people and just taking a walk and doing nothing. Either I'm feeling insanely peaceful, or that I'm just going haywire. I feel, happy, relaxed, and fun. Although this should be the lowest in my defination of fun.
2) Would I ever take death so lightly again? Or do I aspire to do more?
Everyone emos every now and then, these days, i dont emo, but i end up thinking. I just noitced that some scars on my wrist are fading. Of cos they are still pretty obvious, but they are fading such that I can see. Then I was thinking, actually, i want to do something with life. I dunno what. Just something. I feel like there is pretty much to live for. There is so much of God's goodness that I havn't shared with everyone. There is so many people whom I havn't seen saved. There are so many people I want to know I'd still be saying Hi and Bye to them in heaven.
Life has been like a typoon. woosh woosh. 1 day has passed. woosh woosh, there goes another ! I havn't really stopped, or infact quieten down these days. And I rmb this saying, " When life gets too busy, we may lose track of God. Because of all the other voices, we may not be able to hear our LORD's soft and gentle voice. " Then, I really wanna get throgh this typoon. I really want to stop, to slow down. Once I'm done with my madness, maybe I'd be happier.
you know I miss you sweetheart. I really wanna give you a kiss on your forehead and tell you how much I love you.
I must be the stupidest girl alive to tell you the truth and let you hate me, instead of hiding the truth from you and letting you remain nutural to me.
SMILE
Thursday, April 29, 2010 @ 9:32 PM
| 0 notessomething is wrong with my laptop. The font size is wrong, The font type is wrong, everthing is wrong. so equal full-stop equal.
anyways, I have been thinking ALOT these days. thinking about so many things. things that even i, dont have a valid explaination for. random things like,
1) When I reach my 18th birthday, I wanna celebrate it with cakes and close friends. Maybe Vienna if I could afford ;P
When people reach 18, they wanna do all the stupidest things on Earth. But for me, approaching 18, I never felt younger before. I feel like a small girl now. waking up in the morning poking Jeanette, chanting , "fat dad is so fat. fat fat fat fat fat", calling jon to find out what he's doing just for the sake of it. Going out with people and just taking a walk and doing nothing. Either I'm feeling insanely peaceful, or that I'm just going haywire. I feel, happy, relaxed, and fun. Although this should be the lowest in my defination of fun.
2) Would I ever take death so lightly again? Or do I aspire to do more?
Everyone emos every now and then, these days, i dont emo, but i end up thinking. I just noitced that some scars on my wrist are fading. Of cos they are still pretty obvious, but they are fading such that I can see. Then I was thinking, actually, i want to do something with life. I dunno what. Just something. I feel like there is pretty much to live for. There is so much of God's goodness that I havn't shared with everyone. There is so many people whom I havn't seen saved. There are so many people I want to know I'd still be saying Hi and Bye to them in heaven.
Life has been like a typoon. woosh woosh. 1 day has passed. woosh woosh, there goes another ! I havn't really stopped, or infact quieten down these days. And I rmb this saying, " When life gets too busy, we may lose track of God. Because of all the other voices, we may not be able to hear our LORD's soft and gentle voice. " Then, I really wanna get throgh this typoon. I really want to stop, to slow down. Once I'm done with my madness, maybe I'd be happier.
you know I miss you sweetheart. I really wanna give you a kiss on your forehead and tell you how much I love you.
I must be the stupidest girl alive to tell you the truth and let you hate me, instead of hiding the truth from you and letting you remain nutural to me.
