we went out together so mnay times alrdy..there cld hav been more to us in the future...do u wan to throw everthing away over what they 'said'' and think......

bloody wasted if u want to knw what i think

anyway, thts all i hav to say, u hav my number, call me if u wanna say sumthing or at least offer me a explanation on what the hell happened

if nt then i can't be bothered with a person who wld listen to two idiots who hav totally wasted their lives and don even knw what they are doing......

friendship is one thing, being sturbbon over lost individuals is another "

 so u think u're very smart don't you? calling people idiots. Do u think u run ur life better than the both of us? Do u think ur life was more fruitful? yes, we've made miztakes in our lives, but who are u to judge us? What about u ? all ur past and everything. and anyway, if there isn't sparks, there wun be fire. so if u think u have been so perfect, think again. IDIOT. *PISSED OFF

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anyway, to all who wanna know why I cried, lemmi say, I dunno too. I dunno why I cried. I saw Leonard Chua with 2girls and a guy at Harry's Esplanade. And I cried. Short, Simple. I cann't offer an explanation as to why i cried. Until this minitue, i cannt justify a reason why I cried. I think i was really stupid. But i dun wanna talk abt it anyway.

Dear God, You have been Faithful, seing me through my hardest times, and carrying my precious in your hands. Thank You Dear God that you have been there. Thank you dear God for making whats precious to me, precious to you too.

My whisphered Prayers, for my dear Abba Father.

He has been faithful, my precious son is safe.

I have been meeting with abit of wavering faith. On the day I saw Leonard, in the morning, i had this random though that says, " What is not mine, I shall not beg for. " & I saw him at night. Was my LORD protecting me? Preparing me for what was to come?

And the next day morning, after a very troubled and frustrating night, I couldn't help waking up at the wrong side of my bed. I was literally snappy to everyone and I cried again on the bus to sch. Yes, I know I am stupid. I was trying very hard to divert the pain to something else, to somewhere else. I wanted very baddly to physically injure myself, i wanted to hit the wall, i wanted to scream, i wanted to cry all over again. But I could hear a whispher, a very soft one that says, " The darkest hours are just before dawn. " & "It is when you are strongest in the Lord that the devil would wanna come near to you. to shake and make ur faith wavier."

I cannot promise that right now I have gotten over it, if someone drags it up, I prob will tear all over again, but at least I'm trying. trying to be happy, to trust in my Lord.