God's Call
Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 9:09 AM
| 0 notesMy Lord's calling.
Calling me to let go.
I cried so badly that day. So very badly that even I cann't understand. Through those tears, I've learnt quite abit of things. But after those tears, so surely I know I hear the Lord reciting Philipians 1:27, " Above all, you must live as citizens of heaven, conducting yourselves in a manner worthy of the Good News about Christ. " But why this verse I don't know. I thought it was the night before as I was abit roudy.
But today at church, I know God's calling. HE is calling me so loudly. Above the sounds of the roaring waves, the ferice wind, I hear my Lord's thudering voice. Today, Pastor Derrick was speaking on the tittle, " Worthy Of the Calling", Eph 4:1-6. Somehow, I don't know how he went about, but he ended up talking about unforgiveness. All this while I've believed I'm trying very hard to forgive Leonard for the pain in my life. But only today I realized, no, I'm trying on my own strength, I havn't been relying on God. By my own strength of cos it is hard. After all, the pain he left in me isn't little. But I have been carrying this hurt for too long. Maybe it's even being to rot in me. Thats why my Father is calling out to me. To put down this hatred, to put down this unhappiness. Maybe it's time for a new beginning. Maybe my Lord has a new faith for me. Something HE wants to send me to do. But 1st, I've got to place this hatred at the bottom of my cross. I need to learn to be more Christ-like.
I hear you my Lord. I hear you. But tell me, what should my next move be? What should I do to go about placing this hatred down? I don't know where to start, how to begin. Teach me Father, as I humble myself infront of you.
God's Call
Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 9:09 AM
| 0 notesMy Lord's calling.
Calling me to let go.
I cried so badly that day. So very badly that even I cann't understand. Through those tears, I've learnt quite abit of things. But after those tears, so surely I know I hear the Lord reciting Philipians 1:27, " Above all, you must live as citizens of heaven, conducting yourselves in a manner worthy of the Good News about Christ. " But why this verse I don't know. I thought it was the night before as I was abit roudy.
But today at church, I know God's calling. HE is calling me so loudly. Above the sounds of the roaring waves, the ferice wind, I hear my Lord's thudering voice. Today, Pastor Derrick was speaking on the tittle, " Worthy Of the Calling", Eph 4:1-6. Somehow, I don't know how he went about, but he ended up talking about unforgiveness. All this while I've believed I'm trying very hard to forgive Leonard for the pain in my life. But only today I realized, no, I'm trying on my own strength, I havn't been relying on God. By my own strength of cos it is hard. After all, the pain he left in me isn't little. But I have been carrying this hurt for too long. Maybe it's even being to rot in me. Thats why my Father is calling out to me. To put down this hatred, to put down this unhappiness. Maybe it's time for a new beginning. Maybe my Lord has a new faith for me. Something HE wants to send me to do. But 1st, I've got to place this hatred at the bottom of my cross. I need to learn to be more Christ-like.
I hear you my Lord. I hear you. But tell me, what should my next move be? What should I do to go about placing this hatred down? I don't know where to start, how to begin. Teach me Father, as I humble myself infront of you.
