18?
Thursday, July 29, 2010 @ 8:58 AM
| 0 notesI'm reaching 18 in 2days. how happy would i be? Would i want to be 18? why am i not excited to be 18? last year, on 3rd aug, i realized eleo's exsistant. 9weeks. i was 9weeks then. suddenly breathing is hard. but its useless. i dunno who to talk too anymore. 1st aug. when it apporachs can i pretend it it isn't a day. can i not celebrate? can i remain at 17? -sigh- jael, eleo's gone, he'll never be part of ur life again. he'll not come back. its time to let go. seriously.
I'm appoarching 18. and with that, i'm accepting responsibilty on my shoulders. forever i'll live in regret for not trying hard enough to keep eleo by myside. srly, i'd rather give everything up and have my son with me. dear God, for my 18th birthday wish, can i wish for eleo to come back to me on his 18th bday?
I hate the 1st of Aug. Esp since i'm so unhappy. i hate faking this smile on my face that i'm excited about my 18th bday. i hate pretending to want what and what and what on my 18th bday. i hate the 1st of Aug.
18?
Thursday, July 29, 2010 @ 8:58 AM
| 0 notesI'm reaching 18 in 2days. how happy would i be? Would i want to be 18? why am i not excited to be 18? last year, on 3rd aug, i realized eleo's exsistant. 9weeks. i was 9weeks then. suddenly breathing is hard. but its useless. i dunno who to talk too anymore. 1st aug. when it apporachs can i pretend it it isn't a day. can i not celebrate? can i remain at 17? -sigh- jael, eleo's gone, he'll never be part of ur life again. he'll not come back. its time to let go. seriously.
I'm appoarching 18. and with that, i'm accepting responsibilty on my shoulders. forever i'll live in regret for not trying hard enough to keep eleo by myside. srly, i'd rather give everything up and have my son with me. dear God, for my 18th birthday wish, can i wish for eleo to come back to me on his 18th bday?
I hate the 1st of Aug. Esp since i'm so unhappy. i hate faking this smile on my face that i'm excited about my 18th bday. i hate pretending to want what and what and what on my 18th bday. i hate the 1st of Aug.
