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Thursday, October 7, 2010 @ 9:44 AM
| 0 notesliterally waking up in tears today.
i dreamt of myself holding Eleo. I dreamt of him smiling at him, then i dreamt of him saying mama. I rmb being so happy. So happy that he was with me. I put Eleo down ran to Jasmine shouting, " Jas, Eleo's here! He's back with me! Jas, look! Jas look! "
Jas gave me a very confused look, saying, "Jael, how can Eleo be with you?"
and i just happily told her,"he is! he is!"
Jas follwed me to see what I could show her, very certain I didn't have Eleo with me.. When I reached the place where i lay Eleo, I couldn't find him. I panicked immediately, and i started crying and asking, "where's Eleo? WHERE'S ELEO ?!!!!"
Jas was so lost but she told me so gently, as if used to this sight, "Jael, Eleo's not here. He's not with you."
I cried, I cried so hard. Then somehow I realized I was dreaming and I really REALLY didn't want to wake up. But I was crying so hard, I woke up with tears still flowing. And I continued to cry.
It was so hard to explain how much I didn't want to wake up. I so much wanted to go back into my dreams where I was holding Eleo, where I was watching him smile. It was so painful. Everything was so painful.
I couldn't cheer up. For a long long time I couldn't cheer up.
I took some pics for the fun of it..
when Sebast saw this pic, he asked, "huh? u crying on the bus?"
Ans, "No, I wasn't crying, but yes I feel so much heartache that this look came out so naturally."
this was the 1st eddited pic. soon after i took.
this was eddited after i came home. and this picture wasn't posed. I accidentally press the "snap" button.
it came out well enough and apparently the best to show my heartache.
unedited version
乐恩，我真的很想你
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Thursday, October 7, 2010 @ 9:44 AM
| 0 notesliterally waking up in tears today.
i dreamt of myself holding Eleo. I dreamt of him smiling at him, then i dreamt of him saying mama. I rmb being so happy. So happy that he was with me. I put Eleo down ran to Jasmine shouting, " Jas, Eleo's here! He's back with me! Jas, look! Jas look! "
Jas gave me a very confused look, saying, "Jael, how can Eleo be with you?"
and i just happily told her,"he is! he is!"
Jas follwed me to see what I could show her, very certain I didn't have Eleo with me.. When I reached the place where i lay Eleo, I couldn't find him. I panicked immediately, and i started crying and asking, "where's Eleo? WHERE'S ELEO ?!!!!"
Jas was so lost but she told me so gently, as if used to this sight, "Jael, Eleo's not here. He's not with you."
I cried, I cried so hard. Then somehow I realized I was dreaming and I really REALLY didn't want to wake up. But I was crying so hard, I woke up with tears still flowing. And I continued to cry.
It was so hard to explain how much I didn't want to wake up. I so much wanted to go back into my dreams where I was holding Eleo, where I was watching him smile. It was so painful. Everything was so painful.
I couldn't cheer up. For a long long time I couldn't cheer up.
I took some pics for the fun of it..
when Sebast saw this pic, he asked, "huh? u crying on the bus?"
Ans, "No, I wasn't crying, but yes I feel so much heartache that this look came out so naturally."
this was the 1st eddited pic. soon after i took.
this was eddited after i came home. and this picture wasn't posed. I accidentally press the "snap" button.
it came out well enough and apparently the best to show my heartache.
unedited version
乐恩，我真的很想你
